okay, so i did a thing y’all.

a big thing.

a making moves,

big gal,

grown up thing.

…

i put in an application for an apartment!

crazy, i know! talk about adulting! it is time though and honestly has been for awhile now. the only thing that was holding me back was the lack of decent places for a reasonable price - in my hometown they are rather non-existent. that is until i remembered there was one other option i had forgotten about. i did the research, found the application, printed it, and filled it out! unfortunately, because the place i would rent only has a select amount of spaces not only are the chances of them being full very likely, but they also are sure to have a decent waitlist. when i talked with my cousin who also has rented through them she mentioned it taking her about 5 months before getting a place. ideally enough i am hoping that would be about the same amount of time for me to get in as i would like to move out after the worst of winter/beginning of spring.

i haven’t even gotten the apartment and just the thought is exciting enough. i mean i could not even begin to tell you how long i have had boards on Pinterest filled with housing inspiration. trust me, it is a lot. the idea of having my little own oasis where everything is decorated to my likening. ahh. i am melting with joy just thinking about it. my little slice of the world. my unique vibe. oh! and organizing! yes, yes, yes! i am here for it all. the aesthetic is going to be absolutely beautiful. honestly my elementary self is thriving thinking of it because a little known fact about me is that i used to dream of being a designer, fashion and interior.

i mention this because 1. i am beyond excited for this new chapter of life when it comes and 2. because it has been helping me to enjoy the process instead of rushing to the next step/s. my worker side of me loves completing tasks. whenever i have things to get done you can bet your booty i am on it. like work through lunch to get done motivation. I truly dislike “wasted time.” what i understand now though is that there are times when it is okay not to rush though everything, where it is okay to let the process last. i guess getting used to deadlines in school was a trait that had moved over to everyday life. as if everything had to get done, now and asap. that definitely did not nor does not adhere to our mental health and also sometimes has us missing out on other aspects of life. for me, that looked like missing out socially at times. now, i don’t mean when there are things to do at work don’t do them! absolutely not! i value a hard worker, but when it comes to stressing over not getting every little task done i wanted to over the weekend those are the times when it’s okay to slow down. the process is the part we should be enjoying.

so maybe this move is just the beginning of another new chapter in my life, and the beginning of adulting, but i love it. i love it even knowing that there with be struggles, and trial and errors, and probably some tearful nights reminiscing on the youthful days where bills and such we only in the distant future, but it is so exciting. words can not even begin to describe the feeling that i am feeling and the warmth in my heart for this. to life and new adventures! now, let’s just hope i get a place!