i just have to say that god is good.

and i mean really good.

because despite the difficult season that am coming out of i see his glory rain over me. despite my questioning, despite my saddened heart and soul that spent many days in a season that i only ever imagined to be the most beautiful weeping and feeling alone more than ever. despite the frustrations and chaos. he came to show me that whatever we are experiencing is only a part of what is really happening.

i’ll explain this a little bit better by taking it back to January 14, 2022. this was the day we had found out we were not approved for a home loan after finding a condo mark and myself could envision living in. we were crushed but knew that it had to be all apart of a greater plan. we focused on the tasks we need to do; mark paying off his school loan and myself building credit by getting a credit card. for awhile we forgot all about looking as it wasn’t a priority at the time. as time went on we would occasionally check what was available and while a couple places popped up that seemed okay nothing seemed to feel right.

until today.

april 12, 2023.

today was the day that i looked at an apartment and while mark wasn’t here to view it with me i was able to send him photos of a space that right so right. even before we saw though i already had a good feeling about it . i could say i don’t know how this all happened but i truly believe that it felt so right because it was heaven sent. it was all apart of the plan. you see that other home was never meant for us and i feel god didn’t even what us to see if because he knew we would like it and be even more devastated when we did not get the loan or that there was something wrong with the place, the neighboring area, the energy. it could have been a lot of things and those things also were likely to lead us on a different place without the opportunity to get this new and better place. Mark 4:20 reads “and those are the ones on whom seed was sown on the good soil; and they hear the word and accept it and bear fruit, thirty, sixty, and a hundredfold.” meaning those who believe in him and the gospel will live a fruitful life; one richer than they could have imagined. where we perfect in our struggles? no, we were upset but we still believed, we still had faith and in doing so we bore fruit.

do not simply believe me on my feeling because that isn’t the only reason god played his part in it all.

when i sent the application i knew i had to stand out amongst the crowd and so i added an extra page about us and our relationship so they could get to know us a little better. i said those exact words to both my fiancé and mom. “i want our application to stand out.” today as we were there scooping our our potential new home the renter informed us that she was glad we added the extra page because she felt it, “made us stand out.” you could say that it was a coincidence but i see his plan and faithfulness to me in that. i never have added an extra portion like that to an application, but i felt so strongly to add it that night I was working on the application.

if that all isn’t enough to get you believing the timing couldn’t have been more perfect the move in day is May 1st which would make for a get transition before leaving for our wedding as it would give a good amount of time to move in thus allowing us with a beautiful place of our own to come back to.

it still amazes me everyday what he does for us. he is truly so good. & if this is a season you are struggling with remember that this part of your life is only a small portion of the greater plan that he has set for you. be patient in the waiting and stedfast in your faith.

“therefore, my dear brothers and sisters, stand firm. let nothing move you. always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that you're labor in the Lord is not in vain.” - 1 corinthians 15:58