i am going to be completely honest with you all. i have no idea how to start this post - not even in the least. for weeks i felt that god was speaking a message to my soul to share with you but i am at such a lost for words. i have no idea where this post is going to go, but i am trying to put my trust in him and his plan even when i am unaware. bind faith. the act of giving my worries and concerns to god when i am not even sure what to believe. all i know is that the more i think about what to write the more i wonder if i will ever come up with anything good, anything worthwhile, anything at all.

that absolutely frightens me because i have put so much time and hard work into being consistent. 7 weeks of completed blog posts? this one being the 8th? already? it still feels a bit unreal to me, but it’s crazy how determination really moves mountains and changes habits to form new ones. what if that is all for nothing? what if i suddenly having nothing to write about? or at least write about well? on top of these questions my mind wanders to thoughts of friendships that have seemed off recently, and other things my heart desires to pursue (photography, traveling, etc.) but has failed to find time for in my busy schedule. oh and the multitude of things i need to get done like the never ending amount of laundry! in a fast pace society such as ours it’s so easy to feel like we are, even in the midst of a hectic and jam packed full schedule, still somehow falling behind everyone else.

it’s completely overwhelming!

so as i sit here thinking of what to talk about in my post all i can think of is how much i need to be still. how my heart desires be to be still. how much i need to be present and at peace; forgetting about tomorrow’s worries. how i need to really focus on my faith and trust in god’s beautiful grace. maybe this is what i am called to focus on today. to remind you beautiful people (myself included) to be still.

god reminds us in psalm 46:10 that he is here with us and to help us. i mean he did die on the cross for us and he loves us unconditionally so why? why try to control our circumstances when trusting in him leads us to so much more. sure we still have to show up, work hard, and be responsible. no way is god going to physically get you out of bed, dress you, and complete your tasks at work for you, but he does asks that you lean on him through hard times and celebrate the good with him.

so when a friend suggested i write about my trust in god, i felt like this was something that i could indeed reflect because the way i was responding to my circumstances was lacking the the trust and faith i felt in my heart; that god has got me- in everything i do. instead i was responding as if i had to do everything now and not only did it needed to be done now but done well. i was burning myself out, by taking on more than i had time for and carrying unnecessary worries. my lack of trust/faith created an overwhelming amount of work that further prevented me from rest (psychically) and resting in his beautiful mercy (mentally). reality check. i needed to hold onto that trust, that trust that other people saw in me and that i deeply knew was there but not utilizing to the extent i should. let me be completely real with y’all: trusting in god is not an easy path.

i can first handedly tell you that it is not because i have walked this path, often blindly and when i say this i do not mean just walking blindly for an hour but instead weeks, seasons, even years. if it was easy though everyone would be doing it, but it’s not. it is not easy and you know what it is not supposed to be easy. oftentimes it is absolutely lonely. sometimes it is frightening BUT (yes, there is a but) BUT it is worth it. nothing worth while ever came easy right? right. now i hope this talk of being hard, lonely, and frightening has not already caused you to step back and think man this is not for me but instead that it empowers you because you know that you are not alone. all who choose to seek god and walk with him as his children are bound to face struggles in their faith - we are humans remember, imperfect beings. we are, however, first and foremost children of god. “see what love the father has given us, that we should be called children of god” - 1 John 3:1. above all our other titles we are his children, thus we are worthy of his love and grace. just as our earthy father is called to care and protect us so is true for our heavenly father. it might be hard, and especially true for those who do not share in a strong relationship with their earthy father and/or other family members but when we trust in god he multiples our blessings and our world gets larger.

now if you are not religious i do not want you to leave this post thinking that nothing here is for you. for me my strength is greatly rooted in my faith, but i get that not everyone has the same beliefs and that is completely okay. what i speak of though i feel is such an important matter. think of it this way: our bodies are power houses, but without rest we get sick and naturally our body calls us to care for ourselves and well being. when we are sick our first priority is to take care of our health and that goes for physically, mentally, and emotionally. we need to rest not only when we are burnt out, but throughout the process so we can continue to grow and prosper. often times we work so hard doing a multitude of other things we forget to check in with the one thing that really matters; our health thus it’s important that we step back from the daily combustion and the 5,000 things we feel we need to get done and just relax. clear the mind and rest in the fact that live is this beautiful thing meant to be enjoyed and not lived in fast forward.

if you are overwhelmed. this post goes to you. rest. be still. if you are not overwhelmed well this post still is for you. rest. be still. let not yourself not get to the place that you are forced to rest, but instead where you find the time to rest daily.