it is safe to say the past 24 hours have been super hectic for me, with a lot of overthinking, and when i say a lot, you can bet i mean A LOT of overthinking. but in that same 24 hours i have also been reminded of two important lessons..

now before i dive right into what i learned i think it is important you get a better understanding of where i was coming from.. i reached out to a company in order to take pictures of their product, and seeing that they were looking for influencers and liked my page they were willing to work with me. i got the product only to receive a message about it, showing the company in a rather negative light. i felt stupid for not doing more research, and this is when self doubt started to creep over me. at this point i wasn't even sure i wanted to take the photos and i was in a funk because i was so conflicted what was the right thing to do. i talked to my aunt, who had made me feel a bit better about the situation, but it was safe to say i still wasn't in the right set of mind. it wasn't until this morning that i received a new message from the company regarding the article that had been brought to my attention. basically all that time i had spent worrying was for nothing, because i had nothing to worry about.

then again that time worry though wasn't for nothing because like i said i was reminded of two very important lessons.

1. check your resources. always. i happened to get lucky, but do your research or at least have a good idea of what you are getting yourself into. just as it is essential to remember there are always two side to a situation, maybe even more in some cases. my point though is don't get blinded by your excitement.

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2. never let others get in the way of you, your dreams, and how you see yourself.

the later of the two important lessons really got me. i let what one person had to say affect me to the point that my night wasn't used as efficiently as i had hoped. instead i questioned myself; who i was, what i stood for, where i was going, if what i was trying to achieve was worth it. i even questioned god, because everything had been going so well lately, i thought wow things are finally getting in place, and i am making progress will the things in life that i truly enjoy. i was living and loving life, and at that moment, it felt like the door to these new opportunities was closing. basically, i through myself a little pity party. invitation count 1, and it was me.

so what i'm human, it happens. sometimes we overthink things, sometimes we mop around. safe to say though at the end of the day i'm not going to let them or anyone for that matter determine how i see myself because i am awesome, and so are you.

so please if you take just one thing from this remember that each and everyone one of you, reading this post right here, right now, are a boss and you don't need others to determine what it is you do or who you want to be. if it makes you truly happy then do it. live the life you want to live because you and your opinion are so incredibly important.

also i figured i'd add a couple songs i like to listen to when i am in a funk and being too hard on myself. maybe you'll enjoy them as well. they are just a little boost of remembering who you are and that heck yes you might be human and make mistakes but that you are absolutely bomb and deserve to feel it:

don't be so hard on yourself - jess glynne

never quit - benjah

like you - tatiana manaois